Depression.

It's everywhere.

(00:34 a.m.)

U know what?

Maybe I'm not that greedy.

The reason why TAI lemme down is that they don't update TAI TV regularly, what's worse, it seems they even stop uploading. And telling us they'll be performing on MTV can't satisfy me. Besides, I don't think it's a good excuse.

On the contrary, Biffy Clyro's more "considerate" here. I dunno whether it's a routine or not, they just upload a new vid EVERYDAY! Even tho there's 1 or 2 pretty short vids and a few MVs, that still makes me feel happy.

All I want is keeping ur words, cuz I take 'em seriously.

(2:20 a.m.)

Yea... I'm greedy.

Last nite, I felt pretty upset cuz I could neither watch one of Biffy Clyro's vids nor get it. Uh, it seems that's exactly what I should've talked about before. So I'm that kind of ppl who'd try very hard to get everything s/he wants, but entertainment only. Nothing's gonna stop me.

Finally, I began to watch Gossip Girl these days, season one. Lemme clarify some things first. One, I don't live in the U.S. and there's no cable TV here. Two, I'm not really interested in TV series n YA movies, but I've heard 'bout 'em. Third, like what I frequently mention, I need to work hard to catch up w/ "them", therefore, I don't have more free time. However, the truth is, now I'm kinda addicted to it. And I've ever read "one of those novels"... Hmm, since Blake looks nicer, I'm w/ Serena naturally. Btw, Chace's really a heartthrob! But he's a bit too young for Blake. Honestly, I think Penn's much better. Right, I'm going to watch it later.

What u gonna do w/ all these repetitions? There're so many of 'em, I mean pictures or photos. And because of my greed, I'd rather save one pic which I may probably have got than miss it. Worst of all, sometimes I just can't tell whether it's new or not while seein' a pic... I'm old enough.

(11:37 p.m.)

Angry and impatient... Bloody computer technology.

Luv these The Simpsons characters as well!

Barney's lovely n naive, hahaha.

Otto's really cool! He looks/acts just like a teenager.

I thought Willie's Russian at first. An interesting muscular man.

Eh, the only thing I like 'bout him is that "ha-ha". I even try to imitate, ha-ha!

Justboy

This song sounds pretty familiar, but I can't recall where n when I heard it... Is it included in any OST???

(10:23 p.m.)

Biffy Clyro.

They're soooooooo cute!! And I personally prefer Simon & James!

P.S. Just saw the first comment. Umm, of course I don't "study" 'em, and it's simply a feeling after browsed a few pix on models.com... :pThanx anyway!

(2:29 a.m.)

Clockwise

In one of The Simpsons DVD episodes I watched today, Bart tried to find out if toilet water also turn in the same direction in the Southern Hemisphere. Actually, I've never noticed that, even now.

How come The Killers's songs sound slower when I use earphones?

They wouldn't gimme a break, of course. So I'm still working hard to catch up. On the other hand, I found a few male models look alike, and they're all newcomers (I think): Duran Bunch vs. Yuri Pleskun & AJ Abualrub vs. Petey Wright. And I prefer the latter one respectively. Besides, I was pretty surprised to see one party hipster become a model, and he's w/ Ford now.

A couple of bands have redesigned their official websites, and they look great. I haven't lost interest/passion for The Strokes, which is good. Rock on plz. However, TAI sorta lemme down lately, cuz they don't upload new TV episodes that regularly now. Sometimes I wonder if it's really hard to keep ur words. Instead, TBS keeps updating these days, and I'm glad to hear from 'em. Btw, I may probably buy The Strokes's albums, even tho I've got the best 2 songs already.

My fave vids on Youtube have reached 650, which means I can't add anymore. It's quite annoying. And I don't feel like gettin' a new account, just like I don't wanna sign up on Facebook (pourquoi).

(03:11 p.m.)

Possessive?

About things, basically. Say, if I lost my pen, instead of buying a new one starightway, I'd try my best to find it first. And it's not because I'm that poor, I just prefer my own stuff. Therefore, being upset is predictable once I can't get it back. Guess I've got used to 'em, and I don't wanna familiarize w/ other new things. So the point is, I can't bear losing things I own, not to mention those important ones. I see, that's the biggest reason that keeps making me anxious/unhappy/gloomy/worried/impatient... Should I go see a consultant or sth.? There's no doubt that I'm tired of living like this... And that's why I'm like, always whining about. ("Thanx to" my PC, I decided to write this down, cuz it doesn't work well today n I'm afraid.)

Sigh.

One of the busiest period's already gone, but I still feel stressed. What a life. I'm becoming more negative lately, even tho I laughed a lot. My fave songs do bring me happiness; however, I can't listen to 'em all the time.

(10:51 p.m.)

The Strokes!!!!!

After watching all of their official MVs, 12:51 & Someday have become my fave songs at the moment. Gosh. I've heard 'bout 'em for a long time n know how gorgeous Nick looks. But I just learned they're TRULY awesome... Besides, I found Jules is lovely, and so does Fab (I got to know him when he's still dating Drew Barrymore). Moreover, I was glad to find their live performances're also fascinating. After all, I've seen a few bands, especially the lead vox, didn't sing as well as their records or MVs do. Tho that doesn't really matter. On the other, it's their 10th anniversary of formation. And again, I was surprised to know they began this career so early. Congrats to 'em, and I'll try to see 'em play live someday.

These bands may not be able to save the world, but they can definitely redeem my soul. Of course, I refer to the ones I luv.

J'amie bien aussi The Killers's songs these days, et surtout Mr. Brightside. Mais Change Your Mind, When You Were Young, All the Things I've Done et Somebody Told Me are great as well.

Ok, guess I'd better get back to "work" now. Restless.

(10:33 p.m.)

OH NO OK YO

Since the busiest part's over, now I can rest for a while. And it's good that I have my free time back. After all, I gotta catch up w/ "them". *sigh* Besides, I'm really tired of those discussions n preparation. On the other hand, I've eaten lots of food (cookies, cakes, bread, drinks...) recently. Sadly, my stomach isn't big enough...

While using earphones, I'm always amazed by songs' background music/vocals. Say, She will be loved and Everything We Had. Both of 'em are so touching that they make me feel sad or even wanna cry. However, the two songs are quite beautiful. Moreover, the MV of The All-American Rejects's new song, Gives You Hell, is interesting. And I can't help wondering if these band boys eat anything, cuz most of 'em are pretty thin or skinny!! What's more, they look hot. So, I just fall in love w/ Tyson Ritter n Mike again.

Hmm, I still go watch The Simspons DVDs every week, and I luv Bart's voice. He's also my fave character in it.

Btw, this blog title's a code.

(11:58 p.m.)

Caramel

That's my shampoo's "flavor", and it does smell sweet.

Umm, I'm tired now, but I gotta keep on working so that I can catch up w/ 'em asap.

Guess I will probably be able to speak English much fluently by the end of the month!? After all, I practiced it for nearly 1.5 hours tonite, and it seems I have to do so every Wednesday.

Recently, when I couldn't fall asleep, I began to "plan" what I'm gonna eat for lunch & dinner. And then I found that it's harder to get to sleep...

Alright, I'm REALLY a person who changes rapidly. So now I've made up my mind that I won't intern after graduated.

Currently waiting to get 3 mags, and wish I could own another one which is out of stock.

It's a new milestone for the U.S., actually, I'm w/ Bill, if I didn't mistake his words.

When will I receive the money I should've got already? J'ai une course à faire!!

(11:58 p.m.)

Home...

Not until I checked the new syllabus did I know that I couldn't go home as I wished. C'mon, I gotta celebrate my mom's B-Day! Awww.

Busy busy busy!! The mid-term, the micro-teaching, the blah blah blah... I don't even know how to call that.


Thank God, I still have entertainment at least. It's official, and the quality's much better. However, I'm just not so crazy for HIM now.

I saw that lil boi again, and he's still lovely n handsome! But I could tell that he felt bored during the class. After all, he's learned it already. Oh, I tried not to keep staring at him. However, I couldn't help thinking how cute n good-looking he was. And I'm sure that he'll look just as gorgeous as he is now when he grows up. As long as he doesn't get fat. Am I gonna become a kidnaper? Why do I never have this kind of classmate?

(01:00 a.m.)

Click, click, but I had to sleep! Here we go once again huh? Basically, I often have sleeping problems. So when I MUST sleep (especially for only less than 5 hrs), I didn't fucking care whether she's doing assignments or not. Besides, why can't she do that earlier? Anyway, she wasn't aware of the noises. Or maybe she didn't even care. Fuck!

Well, I forgot to talk 'bout the new French teacher. She's NASTY. Not only because she neglects me but I feel underestimated. Actually, it's fine to "ignore" me, cuz sometimes I don't give a shit to 'em. However, I hate to be despised. That cow (mm...) mentioned Stella Tennant n that Chaumet campaign yesterday. But I didn't know she was talking 'bout her until she wrote her name on the whiteboard. And she either pronounced her last name wrong or she said it in French. Ok, the point is, I know Stella of course! And she may probably be my fave British model. Moreover, I believe that I know her better than that cow does, even tho I don't check models that frequently now. What's more, she misspelled Charlize Theron as "Salith Thelon". Wtf? Not knowing those stars' names isn't a fault. However, if u dunno the thing ur gonna teach, then u should skip it. But I admit that it seems I've learned sth. during the class, although I dislike the way of her teaching. It's too rigid.
Luckily, I saw that little half-breed today. He's skating, and he seemed to like lying on the ground. Haha, what a cutie! But I still couldn't get a picture of him, cuz I didn't bring my camera along... Btw, some grls found him, too. ;b I don't feel like sharing.
Sleepy & kinda pissed off now.
(08:58 p.m.)

Technology

I mean, computers n the Net.

To be more specific, my PC. There're always problems bothering me. This time, nearly everything from the Net to my mouse. Thanx to the bloody news.

Dammit.

Must I worry 'bout it EVERYDAY?

Of course, I know I care 'bout it too much.

But why can't I?

(10:39 p.m.)

I heard it!

The guitar sound.

Or the strings 'n' chord.

Not bass, I think.

While listening to Snow Patrol's Chasing Car just then.

And it's truly touching, so I couldn't help but close my eyes.

It does make a difference to use earphones, songs become more amazing. Even tho my ears ache when I use the gadget...

Btw, I used to hear drums and vocals only.

(02:39 a.m.)

L'amour

Those guys're famous, great and popular. And he's one of them.

He's everywhere. And I can "see" him whenever I want. Besides, I can tell that he gets thinner obviously. Not only his face but arms and legs, so I should start to prevent myself from eating too much. However, I've had a crush on him for a long time, I mean, before he becomes so. Nevertheless, his new look does make my feeling grow stronger.

Every time I "see" him, I can't help smiling. He's just so lovely/childlike/talented/manly/cool/awesome/funny/sexy/hot/young/attractive/good-looking... Moreover, I luv his hair, green or grey eyes, cute teeth, lips, strong arms, etc.

It's kinda embarrassing to admit that I can't stop thinking about him now.

Well, he's actually pretty far away from me.

;-[

(11:04 p.m.)

Divorce.

Last nite, I learned that Madonna got divorced thru Bill's blog (so he reads gossips). Finally. But no, I don't feel happy at all. The rumor turned out to be true. Guy Ritchie is a good man. Even tho I dunno the exact reason that led to their divorce, I still think he's poor. Ummm... Besides, I always like Rocco. He's really cute.

Anyway, how could I be so ignorant?

(11:29 p.m.)