40

like him/how we interact much these days,
basically it's because i know what's going on, and he's available;
i'm totally cool with this kind of freedom,
as long as the concern is removed

(00:36 a.m.)

un heureux événement

liked Pio Marmaï much in it;
the movie shows one of the examples, though with a happy ending

(11:06 p.m.)

there

both he and she,
yet i'm THE ONE,
c'mon, she could simply block me,
wth?
emotional and physical altogether

(4:41 a.m.)

being pushed forward

should not be afraid of of losing anyone;
mercury rx: 4 ppl "reappearred"

(1:03 a.m.)

not my problem

feeling totally calm now,
though he seemed to take it out on me by being aggressive but denied,
another time as a scapegoat,
nothing i can or want to say more,
cool

(00:09 a.m.)

1 thing left

got the feeling of abundance tonight:

a caring and available enemy (20 minutes per day is enough for me, and he shared what's going on there),

best friend and her hubby,

one new but quite supportive friend,

family,

returning old friend,

the shoes arrived out of blue

hopefully the post will be there next wk soon.

it's okay that Arwen and another old friend aren't present

(4:43 a.m.)

buttom line

i had the right to be upset.
now,
said he'd check the flight dates but didn't,
and stopped sharing.
tried already

(5:56 p.m.)

Finally

today marked the end.
is it coincidental that it's the end of the month?

(11:31 p.m.)

indecisive

have i been lying to myself?
don't want to intrude or am afraid to know?
the situation had happened when i was still there, n i didn't feel this bad;
should i try meditation?
a kind of verification of my assumption

(1:41 a.m.)

basically

all the tangible parts r mine

(2:16 a.m.)

i'm cold

because i'm sure about sth.,
at least for now

(1:51 a.m.)

okay

it's over.

(00:45 a.m.)

telepathy

couldn't really recall the face, and started to doubt whom i'd been in contact,
got a selfie today
feel sth. positive

(00:15 a.m.)

thought to

post: "we're doing good, what he did is what i expect";
but today i saw sth. and then sense other thing,
thankfully there's a distraction

(11:32 p.m.)

only memory now

he pushes me away,
i push him back,
we push each other,
maybe i should stop ruining the good parts left.

(00:55 a.m.)