after 7 yrs

and 7 times of visit,
berlin has lost its charm.
p.s. the city seems to be the one for me to part ways with ppl, probably 3 already

(2:43 a.m.)

i thought

without saying/expressing it (clearly), it won't end
even tho i'm already ending it in a way

from yesterday:
don't want to become him,
why hurt myself?
should enjoy as there's nothing right, at least i'm healthy now,
dialogues in my mind,
cried a lot during shower,
record the progress on fb stating signs,
don't focus on him,
just because you're not emotional doesn't mean you're mature,
express directly in the future?
he's an obstable?

today:
needn't to aplogize
know it'd end if i keep being like this,
inevitable,
haven't figured out another way/it's my current way,

(10:16 p.m.)

despues 9.10.19

don't have to please anymore;

i'm good, just chose not to show it now;

will not share as much as usual;

haven't made up mind if i should leave

(3:14 a.m.)