don't blame me

would show my care in the same way u did,
but a principle is a principle,
"do i have to beg you to talk to me",
i don't know what u think,
u don't know how painful i feel,
could be cruel, and expect nothing,
you're in the circle now, so i want to share everything, sure we're different individuals,
probably not that difficult to hate u, simply recalling the sad moments;

maybe i'm romantic, if insecurity is the problem, i'm not the one to be worried,
and i could possibly be fooled by the naive request;

met in the right time.

(10:47 p.m.)

vamos a practicar?

he dicho hace 2 días; le echo de menos;
no estoy suficientemente genial;
pensé que no podría conseguir/llegar hasta agosto

(10:49 p.m.)

bs

either on purpose or not,
try to annoy him in a certain way;
he will leave sooner or later;
have been "following my heart",
but often feel sad and disappointed

(00:17 a.m.)

not masculine

he looked lonely n i felt sad, wanted to be there n warmed him, was shy n like a kid before him, said something opposite to his compliments as usual, he observed pretty well, didn't expect he'd reply "i'm waiting for you!" when asked about Edinburgh, also surprised to c he didn't shave, found it cute when he messed with his hair, he lay in the couch as if pretending i was there

(9:22 p.m.)

es posible

"quien bien te quiere te hará llorar."

(10:53 p.m.)

forbidden words

what if;
as you wish

(11:10 p.m.)

du bist frei

too much tear, tho it's not directly his fault, thought "i'm tired", another cliche. he's probably been trying already, but it's not enough for me.
i want sb. who can be much more available. no way for me to show more "kindness" in such situation.
reasons i must not give up now: to be against the horoscope forecasts, his nephew.

(00:11 a.m.)

head in the clouds

since last friday, have enough happiness, no problem that he didn't msg

(11:19 p.m.)

argue

my assumptions (mad/not interested/busy) due to being insecure n needy?

don't be "considerate"

(10:22 p.m.)

the very requirement

constant contacts

(10:35 p.m)

brake

cliche: tired of waiting;
suppose im not mad about that he made it clear, instead, it's obvious that he didn't wanna talk more;
i see how we might end even if he wants to be serious;
as usual, i want to win, n now im trying to care less;
gracias/gracies

(10:03 p.m.)

inevitable?

repeating

(10:41 p.m.)

naturally

all the actions when one enjoys

(00:40 a.m.)

think. think

the feeling of being rejected,
it seems that i started to open up but that's not appreciated,
found more cruel moments,
but maybe i'm selfish too,
don't want to pretend, yet the attempt of communication is v likely to fail

(8:10 p.m.)

hourglass

is there a "natural" way that could stop myself from thinking about it then feeling sad? even tho i'm aware we might not work out after

(6:41 p.m.)

crisis

miss him, even tho i'm preparing for the worst scenario already

(12:41 p.m.)

in-

invest
in return
would like to invite him here n cook something to eat at least once; as well as the cafe

(00:43 a.m.)

restless

€ √
housing √
moving √
leaving
expiration
trips

i'm aware of the risk, but i've been constantly worried about returning to my old life

(1:07 a.m.)
(21.07)

guess that's the reason

constantly in the state of preparing myself for a sudden end.
when he said i had changed after la siesta, as if i wasn't there. cuz i was waiting.

(7:26 p.m.)

Por favor

lemme celebrate with him

(1:31 p.m.)

*yes we did, at NAP Antic*

let's move on

actually already
1st time: same white tops
2nd time: both dark tees

(00:47 a.m.)

losing faith

in airbnb
n ppl HERE

(2:27 p.m.)

returned

to that address in Berlin this afternoon
just to check the names on the doorbells
no(t any)more

(2:20 a.m.)

A ver

Dropped the postcard into the nearest post last Tuesday, suppose it will arrive after the new yr

(00:58 p.m.)

it's received on 6th of March!

over a month

most of the time, i was waiting for them;
WANT to quit;
dislike kids

(00:17 a.m.)